Age-meme, reprised

[oursin]

If you want to play, say so in a comment. I'll give you an age and you answer the following questions about you at that age.

boxofdelights gave me 30, which was such a year I have been rather circling round this with extreme caution.

I lived in: the flat I bought on leaving the Slow Motion Train Wreck Relationship, in a rather characterless 60s-ish purpose-built block, just off a main road, near the Tube station I still use.

I drove: I took the Tube, buses or walked: didn't drive. The flat actually had a garage, which was not really much use to me.

I was in a relationship with: I'd relatively recently got together with partner, and our relationship was developing on a weekending sort of basis. However, at some point during this year, DL, who I had assumed had faded out of my life, re-erupted into it and Complications Ensued, including a badly-thought-through, mistimed and fairly disastrous holiday on an island Somewhere in the Mediterranean, where DL was building a house. Also, there were long hiatuses in communication, which might, or might not have been, obviated if there had been such things as emails and texting, but meant that I did not know where the relationship was at or even if it was still a relationship for significant periods of time.

I would also consider that my women's group was playing a significant part in my life at this time, though by the end of this year it was beginning to wind down, as people moved on to other places and it got just too few of us to be viable, plus perhaps we had exhausted its possibilities.

I feared: I can't think of anything in particular that I feared but looking back I have a sense of a horde of inchoate anxieties, manifesting as hypochondria, and then becoming, by the end of this year, anxiety attacks for which I was taking medication, and preceding what was going to become a serious depressive episode.

I worked at: I had just got the job as an archivist at what is still my place of work now. Looking back I think the change from a large governmental record office with a long history to a small and what was then a fairly idiosyncratic institution (actually, it's still idiosyncratic, but in very different ways) with a start-up archival project may have been more of a factor in the general unsettlement than I quite appreciated at the time.

I wanted to be: more settled, less anxious, more in control of my own life.

Comments

[jesse_the_k]

Whew. I can see why you were circling: that was a year full of difficult things, old and new.

[quoththeravyn]

This sounds like a fun place to start writing. Pick a number less than 58, please?

[oursin]

How does 25 sound?

[nanila]

I feel that my 30th year and your 30th year were eerily similar. I think you have succeeded admirably at what you wanted to be then!

Please may I have a number less than 35?

[oursin]

18

[nanila]

AHAHAAA, oh 18, AHAAA. *cringes a bit*