My attention has been drawn to this article about OMG getting to 50 and growing old, which I'm actually finding quite annoying.
How many people can say, following a fall which (honestly) could surely have happened to anybody at anytime, like the moped/pedestrian crossing thing that happened to me in my 50s:
I’ve never regained an absolute trust that my body will automatically fall into line with my will: from now on it will falter and fail. I can no longer depend on it to function properly. This, it seems to me, is solid indication that my youth has ended and middle age begun.
To which I was thinking, no, this is a revelation that you have not been subject to a lot of the nigglesome and tiresome things about bodies to which the flesh is heir, even among those of us who would probably count as able-bodied.
Never, throughout my life, young or old, have I felt that my body will 'automatically fall into line with my will'. Migraines, menstruation, colds, fevers, food-poisoning, accidents, tripping on things, being unable to reach things on high shelves, being unable to lift more than a crtain weight, limitations on how fast I could run - all these were things which, will it as strongly as I might, I could not affect.
Surely very few people do feel that absolute surety? There must be some sense of limitation falling between the will and the capacity to embody it.